I can't get into it, but it's ugly and I'm worried and frightened, and I'm going into a meeting tomorrow and I have no idea what the problem is, only that I would appear to be getting blamed for it, and I am terrified I could lose my job.
I hate the job, but it pays the bills, and should I ever get pregnant again, it has great benefits.
Could you please say a prayer for my sanity tonight and tomorrow, that I would make it through, with a job?
And that even in this wretched economy, I could find another one? I promised myself a long time ago that any job that kept me up at night agonizing over politics and fear was not worth the pay cheque that came with it.